Sunday, May 15, 2011

The Tell-Tale Heart Analysis

     The Tell-Tale Heart is a short story written by Edgar Ellen Poe and published in January, 1843. In this short story, presumably, a man who is the narrator murders an old man because the old man possess a blue vulture-like eye that frightens the man. It took the narrator seven nights to prepare his plan to murder the old man but on the eighth night, he woke the old man in his sleep. Consequently, the old man was awake and his vulture eye was open which provoked the narrator to murder him. During the night, he murders the old man and dissembled his body so he could hide it under the floorboards of the old man's chamber. The next day, police arrived at the scene of the crime because a neighbor reported to them that there was a shriek next door in the previous night. When the police searched the house, they were convinced that it was the narrator shrieking in his dreams the night before. As time progresses, the narrator began to hear the old man's heart beating under the floorboard so he confessed to having murdered the old man and hid his body under the floorboards which concludes the story.

     After performing some research on this story, it seems that the narrator of the story  is trying to retell the murder in order to prove that he is not insane. At the beginning of the story, he mentions how after having the disease, his senses of hearing were increased to prove that the disease provides him with benefits that insanity would not provide. In addition, if he is trying to prove that he is not insane, then he would have to go to prison for murdering the old man. That could mean that he might have been sent to the asylum for being insane and because he is truly becoming insane in that place, he wants to escape so he have to prove his sanity to the person who he is talking during his recall of the event.

      Also from researching about the story, this whole account could just be a manifestation of the narrator's dream. Throughout the whole story, it can be inferred that the narrator hates the old man's vulture eye and wants to kill him so if he keep thinking about it in the day, it is likely that he dreams about it at night. In addition, at the beginning, the narrator is also very nervous and in the middle, there was a shriek which could mean that the narrator just woke up from a dream and shrieked about the beating heart that was at the end of his dream.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Regret

It was a weekday similar to every other one but surprisingly on this day, I realized something that I would rather not want to talk about. No matter what I tried to do, the event would not leave my mind. If trying to forget about it does not solve the problem, then I might as well confess my sins to relief this burden on my chest.
EVERYTHING started on that unfortunate day. The clouds were blocking the sun’s rays, creating a shroud of darkness on top of the school grounds of John C. Haines School. The winds swirls the burnt leaves together into bundles similar to the prelude of an oncoming storm. After the combination of these omens, the story begins.   
It was about a partner of mine named Christian who I always work with whenever there was a project. On that day, the teacher announced a new project so I went to my partner’s home in the hope of finishing it. After the announcement, the teacher also collected our notebooks and that lead up to another peculiar event. Surprisingly, a student named Daniel that always has his notebook told the teacher that someone stole it because he remembered having it in his possession after arriving at school.
             “I think someone stole my notebook.” exclaimed Daniel.
“I think you might have just misplaced it somewhere. If you are not able to find it or redo the material that was in the notebook, you would only earn a C on grade for this quarter, Daniel, do you understand?” replied the teacher.
            “I could swear to God that I did not lose my notebook. Somebody must have stolen it and if I find out who that person is, he is going to suffer!” murmured Daniel.
Afterward, Daniel searched every corner of the classroom for his notebook but no matter where he went, there was no trace of it. Without his notebook, Daniel earned a C for that quarter, which I realized later on, would not happen if I spoke up.

Later in the afternoon at Christian’s home…

“Hey Christian, how about we start working on the project?”
 “Well why don’t we go up to my room with the computer so we could work on it” replied Christian.

            As we went up the stairs, an odd feeling appeared. As I constantly tried to shrug off the odd feeling, it did not leave me so I told myself that if something is going to happen, then I might as well just face it.
            Once we were inside his room, I notice something under one of the legs of his computer table, resembling the shape of a notebook. As I bent down and took a closer look at it, it was Daniel’s notebook. Seeing the baffled look on my face, Christian told me that my eyes were not playing tricks on me.
            “Seriously now, why did you steal his notebook, Christian? Answer me!”
“Well first of all, it was fun seeing Daniel’s depressed/angry look and I enjoy stealing things. Besides, there are other objects I have stolen too such as these two school calculators,” replied Christian as he took out two school calculators from one of his table drawers.”
 “I suggest you give those things back or would you rather want me to tell Daniel what I saw here today?” An awkward silence followed similar to the moment before the predator devours the prey.
            After a few moments, I stood up but unfortunately, my head bumped against the bottom of the table. Before I was able to recover, Christian repeatedly assaulted my stomach with his legs. In those few seconds, my stomach tightened and I coughed continuously. The pain was real but it was not the end. Before I moved my arms to protect myself, he stopped and bent his head down to my ears and hissed a few words that I would never forget.
            “If you don’t want me to hit you again like this or steal your notebooks and homework in the future, you should be obedient and never reveal what you saw today to anyone. You know I could do it and there is nothing you could do to prevent it. You got it or do I need to repeat myself?” laughed Christian.
“Okay”
            Moreover, that was the end of it. A few moments later, I stood up. If I report him, no one would believe me without prove and when I do it, he will torture me. In the end, there was nothing I could do to help Daniel so I decided to keep quiet to save myself. Without further thoughts, we quickly finished the project and I went home realizing for the first time that the partner I had worked with for every project was such a demon on the inside. His demonic aura sends shivers down my spine and I ran for home, trying to forget.       
            The next day arrive as swiftly as it went. The wind brushed against my face like swords gliding on the surface of flesh. The truth ached deep inside my heart waiting to be released but with the chains of terror binding it, it eventually became silent similar to my conscience that I threw down into the hole formed by my weakness.
            As Christian predicted, I did not confess and so as promised, nothing happened to me but Daniel acquired an unjust grade.
            Later that day, I banged my head against the wall to drown out the voice in my head. It told me what I should have done but did not do. It was my conscience and it has returned to haunt me. No matter what I do, it would not leave me alone and for the days afterward, it remained, unchallenged, in my mind. For weeks this condition lasted and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
To this day, I still remember the actions that I undertook which undermined Daniel’s grade and I wondered if I had stopped Christian that day, would he stop doing what he enjoys, or would the torment continue but this time instead of on Daniel, would it have been on me?

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Elysium by Stratovarius

-- Part 1 --
I've never felt like this before
Am I awake? Am I drifting?
There's a hole in the sky!
Am I alive? Did I survive?

In the first stanza, I come to the conclusion that the narrator might be Lucifer because that person seemed to have fell out of the sky thus creating a hole but it also represents Lucifer’s fall from heaven. In addition, the Lucifer fought a battle with God before his banishment so he’s wondering if he is alive.

Broken pictures on my wall
A story of fallen heroes
Now stare ahead with their blind eyes on
A lost horizon

Pictures could be memories of Lucifer’s past in heaven, which is broken after he rebelled against God. When the lyrics mention about a story of “fallen heroes”, it demonstrates Lucifer’s pride because he thought that his fallen angels were heroes who want to be rid of God’s tyranny. In the last two lines, the fallen angels and Lucifer is looking with blind eyes at a lost horizon because they are currently falling into the inferno and losing sight of heaven.    

Sometimes the traces of life with you
Are clearer in my mind than ever

After experiencing his fall, Lucifer begins to recall memories of his past in heaven, which is hinted in the words “traces of life with you” and “clearer in my mind than ever” because good memories tend to be remembered more clearly.

(Chorus A)
I'm reaching this feeling
It's misleading me away from you
Tonight, I find what I've been searching for
You can reach for my wings once more
I'm not afraid anymore
I'm not afraid anymore

In this stanza, Lucifer emphasizes his jealously of God’s power, which lead him to his banishment from God in order to prove to God that he regret the decisions he made. The reason Lucifer would do this is that he want to be with God once more as depicted in “You can reach for my wings once more” and “I’m not afraid anymore” to show that he does not fear God being an omnipotent individual.  

(Solo - Matias / Jens)

Sometimes the dream is sublime with you
I feel in my mind in heaven 

Lucifer is remembering in his dreams of a wonderful past in heaven depicted by a “sublime” dream with “you” which is God. These two lines describes Lucifer’s yearn to be back in heaven.

(Chorus A)
I am ready to fall
I'm not afraid anymore       
                                                                                                                                        
Lucifer is prepared to face the consequences and not afraid of spending life in the inferno.
-- Part 2 --

I am lying on the frozen ground alone
I got lost on my way, my time is up
I'm gone!

I need to find the key

To eternal life and see
The joy, the smile,
The overwhelming love of your heart
Is what I need!

Give me a sign, and show me the way
To the sacred place!

This entire part before Chorus B signifies Lucifer’s loneliness being in hell as described in the first stanza where he is “lying on the frozen ground alone” which relates to being frozen in the ninth circle of the Hell. Then the rest of the lines demonstrate how Lucifer admitted that he lost his way to God and wants God to show him a sign so he can embrace the joys of heaven and the love of God once again.  

(Chorus B)
I can hear you calling my name
From the distant skies
I am holding falling angels
In my arms

Your shadow lurking in the corner of my eye
I'm losing sense of what's real and what's a lie!

Lucifer is yearning and dreaming of redemption from his sins after admitting them in “I am holding falling angels” and hearing God calling his name in “I can hear you calling my name”. In the last two lines, it seems Lucifer is driven to almost madness from seeking redemption that he seemed to find God’s shadow lurking around and losing a sense of reality as depicted in the last line.  

I need to find the key
To eternal life and see
The joy, the smile,
The overwhelming love of your heart
Is what I need!

Give me a sign, and show me the way
To the sacred place!

(Chorus B)

Eternal calling at your fame was not mine
Remedy this falling lie!

Lucifer realized that his powers does not match the powers of God and wants God to forgive his sins.

I feel it burning with me ahead
The earth is turning to red
I'm staring at the flaming skies
Too tired to fight
A chance (to) close my eyes 

After his banishment to Hell, Lucifer is describing his journey there as “flaming skies” and “earth is turning to red”. From analyzing the last two lines, it seems that his will to oppose God has faded because he is too tired to fight and closed his eyes.  
(Chorus B)

I am holding falling angels in my arms
-- Part 3 --

This life has been too long
There's hope everywhere I go

Do you believe in hope and faith
Or eternity?
In the end, you will see
Let this all be free


Eternal light
Blinded my eyes

Lucifer is talking about how his mighty powers symbolized by “Eternal light” blinded him into being jealous of God.

Feel no sorrow,
Joy will follow
Now lay down,
And rest in my arms

God is trying to calm Lucifer that if he have faith again, he will be saved and be able to stay with God as stated in “And rest in my arms”.

(Solo - Jens)

(Chorus C)
Do you believe in hope and faith
Or eternity?
In the end, you will see
Let your soul be free
Be afraid no more,
Just take my hand, I'll guide you through the storm
We're finally home

These last few lines seems to hint at Lucifer being able to have faith in God again and going back to heaven which is his home.

(Chorus C)

We're finally home